Do you ever have those moments when you realize something about yourself and you really don't want it to be true? Self Help, Self Development, Self Exploration; whatever you call it can sometimes take you places you didn't know existed. Previous to being a business owner I worked in the corporate world that always contributed to my continued education with seminars and training in many areas like time management, human resources etc. But even that didn't compare to the educational opportunities I've encountered as a business owner. I recently went through some team building training that also provided some insight on specific personality types. Although there are general attributes listed for each type I felt mine was pretty right on, but it didn't mean I liked it.
I think what bothered me the most is that I felt like the personality type I was categorized into was telling me something about myself I didn't necessarily want to face. I have been hearing the word overextended a lot lately and kept trying to convince everyone (including myself) that I was fine and could handle everything I was committed to. What I learned was that I had so enjoyed all the volunteer work that I had been doing that somewhere along the way I forgot how to say "No I'm sorry I can't fit that into my schedule" or I just didn't want to. I want to feel like I can do everything and manage it so effectively that it would only solidify MY need to be superwoman.
Well, I'm telling myself to Get Over It, re-evaluate and re-prioritize work and service so that I can begin to be a little more present with my family and friends. I'm not sure that in a few words I can convey how incredibly difficult it will be to go through this process of reducing my involvement in the service organizations I'm currently working with. But with the incredible things happening in my business and with my life in general I want to be present to enjoy all of it.
I have a feeling that this year I'll be telling myself to Get Over It many times for many things, but I know that in the end I'll be better for it. It's hard to face things about yourself that you don't want to and this is only the tip of the iceberg with what I recently learned that I truly want to change and improve.
